If I Had Legs I'd Kick You

Rose Byrne at her most disheveled and what I look like (or hope to?) everyday.

Movie: If I Had Legs I'd Kick You

Running Time: 1:53

Nominated for: Lead Actress

How I watched: Prime

When it had me: Ominous stakes in first scene

When it lost me: I stayed confused but not lost

What systems does it challenge: Modern Motherhood aka Parenting Without A Village

First off, they did it to me again. For a Comedy/Drama, I definitely expected more laughs than I got. This movie is a fever dream of mother panic. I watched it with another mom and when we did find laughs they were the uneasy chuckles you get from recognition of really hard times.

This movie nails the isolation that moms feel when times are tough, the self doubt, the exhaustion, desperation and disassociation. I read the whole thing as a very exaggerated depiction of what it feels like in those moments where you are another and you have to be a mother but you literally feel like you CAN'T do the job.

There is a medical affliction impacting the child in the movie. As much as I could see my own parental challenges magnified in the movie, I feel for moms of high needs children or kids with grave illnesses who sit down to this movie. The triggers are everywhere and Mary Bronstein*, the writer and director, does not hold back. 

It is tense and uncomfortable throughout. The stakes are high and only seem to get more impossible. Rose Byrne is incredible, wrenching sympathy and solidarity from you even as she repeatedly demonstrates that she may not be worthy of it. Conan O'Brien and ASAP Rocky are both unexpected and great in their own non-supporting roles. 

I spent the whole time wondering what on earth was happening but heavily invested in the journey nonetheless.

*Mary Bronstein is married to Ronald Bronstein a writer, director, producer who produced Marty Supreme this year. They have worked with both Safdie brothers and apparently all four of them make films that feel like panic attacks.